Order The Weird Stuff

Each morning, I could wake up and think about a million excuses to start the day off with. The mind goes into a million different places when you wake up. Today, I wanted to try to do something different. I wanted to think about something really good first thing in the morning. Thinking about the things that get me excited to wake up in the morning.

I felt a bit better starting my day off. I thought it was always bullshit to wake up and think about what are you grateful for each day.

Then today, I read this post by Ryan Holiday. The quote “Being Curious Is a Career.” I just never saw it like that. He also goes on to say “I think the way you get paid to do that is by making that curiosity valuable to other people” and “You can’t just nerd out — there has to be value creation.”

I really like the thought of this. It just was something that was important for me to think about. I have been on this journey lately and asking myself a lot of questions. I like reading all of these types of articles as they can be stimulating. It gives me hope that I can craft that career and mission that I envision.

Everyday The Chip On My Shoulder Gets Bigger

Rejection is a hard thing to deal with for me. Sometimes, it is something that can be washed away and moved onto the next thing. Then there is this other said where you start to believe in some of these things that you were being told.

It seems like at each stage in my life I have always had someone tell me that I couldn’t do this or that. I almost wanted to make a list of all those moments and how they impacted me. But, I was talking to a good friend today and he said something that really stuck with me.
“It’s just fuel. you get to choose the fire you put it in”

The Fury and Then Misery

Today, started with a fury of ideas. I woke up and just really enter into a flow and things was flowing. I was seeing some of my ideas and projects that I have been thinking about in a different light. I was feeling like I haven’t in months. Then a few curveballs were being thrown at me.

But, as I often to do try and change my mindset I put open on a podcast and I heard this quote.

“I wanted to validate my weirdness”

It was one of those perfect moments as that sums up entirely how I felt in the moment. I feel like I haven’t had that moment to validate my path or even just a wink to it.

I Am My Own Worst Enemy

I generate ideas and I never act on them. I talk myself out of them. I say that I am not good enough. I don’t have enough skills. How does this fit my brand and my audience? I don’t have a brand and audience. But, I need to get those.

The lists can go on and on. But, I have to make some sort of change and that change starts now. The urge of shipping and just trying new ideas are going to brought to the forefront. I am not going to be afraid of that the fact that my interest brings me into a lot of wide topics and different areas. I am going to celebrate them all. I am going to create things that bring value into the world and that harness discussion. I am going to create things that are fun and that I want to see in the world.

Below are a few projects that I have been kicking around. But, haven’t done much with them.


Personal Blog – personal blog, daily commentary.
imaginary.club – Old project that I still really like make I want to make it a little more focused. VR/AR lets look at what is next and figure out how it works. I would love to try a podcast component with this as well.

The Weakness of Strength – A Podcast about falling in love for each person’s perspective. Each week hear their side of the story.


Peaceful Wolf – Tools to help peaceful protests, online tools to block hate and spot fake news.

Also, I Would love to release more courses. It was a task that I did find some enjoyment from them. It helps

I am going to change my mindset from lists and lists to launching and experiment with all of the ideas. Things will go well and things will go south. The goal is to make sure that I empty the tank every day.

A Community Of Power

There are certain people in your life you can have conversations with unfiltered. I mean unfiltered like you can tell them something that you trust would get a deep and honest response. You know that they will take you seriously and respect you. I am lucky to have a few people in my life that I can trust with that level of access to what I am thinking and feeling.

When I talk to these folks these conversations are always the best because you learn the most from them. There is a deep admiration between two parties. Sometimes, this takes the time to develop and sometimes it is just an instant.

I have been trying to open up my trust circle more lately. You can see how they react to that first bout of trust and then you can decide to let them in a piece by piece.

I have always struggled with self-confidence and self-esteem all my life. I won’t get into the gory details here but trust is always I hard thing for me to give people. Access is even harder.
I often think of this quote. “There must be, not a balance of power, but a community of power.”
I am grateful for my community of power. I am grateful for all that I have shared and learned with them.